Archive for Human Behavior

OMG, Pills!

So, how is it that I’m suddenly back on the scene and able to do some good work again? Why, it’s the magic of modern medicine and chemistry, of course!

I’ve been taking a number of medications on a fairly regular basis for the better part of the last few years due to my spinal fusion and worsening joint and muscle pains throughout my body (in addition to several other symptoms, many stemming from the effects of chronic pain, I would think). This, however, is different.

After my physician at AZ Arthritis and Rheumatology Associates gave me my diagnosis last Friday (Hypermobility Syndrome & Central Sensitivity Syndrome), she looked at me and said, “would you rather take all the pills or feel like shit?”

I appreciated that kind of directness from my doc, and promptly chose the former. Since then, I have diligently been taking a daily regimen of 13 pills, including painkillers, anti-inflammatory meds, muscle relaxers, and some mental heath drugs thrown in to help the attitude) over 4 regular intervals. That’s a lot of freakin’ pills — 91 over the course of a week, and 364 in just one month. So I ordered one of these babies from Amazon, downloaded the Pillboxie app for my iPhone and got organized.

This feels really strange to me, because the last time I did this was when I was caring for a hospice patient.

BUT, I will say that it feels good! I’m no longer stressing myself out and worrying that I’m a pill junkie, for one thing. The doc has told me outright to take these meds regularly. Also, the consistent medication has had a positive effect on my symptoms so far.

So, if your doc gives you meds, for heaven’s sake, take them as directed. Consistently. Don’t give into the “pills are bad” stigma. Sure, there are some side effects (hello dry mouth and constipation), but my original complaints were much worse than those are. I’ll live with that. Hopefully, a very long time.

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Fighting Social Anxiety to Share Experiences

redfaceI hate speaking in front of groups of people. I always have, and I probably always will.

Ever since I was in elementary school and had to get up and speak in front of my class it has been relatively the same experience. I am brave enough to get up there, but then once I see all eyes are focused on me I feel a rush of blood to my head, then my skin pales and begins to fill with red blotches from my face to my chest. Sometimes, I’ll be so nerved up that I begin to break out in itchy hives over the blotches, which I’m sure is a lovely thing to witness.

Then the mind blanks out. Sure, I’ve prepared well thinking this time will be different and I’ll sound like a professional who knows what she’s talking about, but then the stammering starts. Read more

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Freelance Freedom: Indulging My Circadian Rhythm

The best part about being a freelance writer and copy editor who works remotely is that, for Circadian Rhythm the first time in my working life, I am able to keep the sleep/wake cycle that is comfortable for me.

For years I’ve had to drag myself out of bed between 5 and 7 AM to be at a job between 7 and 9 AM, and get out around 4 to 6 PM, and I hated it. My body never wanted to sleep at an early enough hour to allow for me to get in a sufficient amount of sleep before my necessary wake time. I would have an overwhelming sleep deficit by Friday of each week, and would crash all weekend to make up for it. Not healthy or pleasant, that’s for sure.

I even tried second and third shift jobs, and wasn’t fond of either (In fact, I’m really just not fond of working in a corporate office, but we’ll get to that in another post). Read more

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